Breaking Internalised Capitalism

I’m back from my travels. Currently isolating at my dad’s house. So I’ve got plenty of time to write!

This post is pretty out there… I’m trusting the universe that you are ready to receive this message.

Does emotional attachment affect physical items?

Last year, before I started travelling, I said goodbye to most of my stuff. Keeping a few boxes full of sentimental things at my dad’s house.

By just living with a few items in my backpack, I realised how much I needed (not very much!)

I would often find items in the streets of Athens, and add it to my collection. In turn giving away good quality things. With the sense of, if I give to the universe, the universe will give it three times back to me. A gift to the gods if you will!

Looking through what I decided to keep, I felt a disconnect from the physical item, but not the story that came with it.

For example my childhood teddy…

I’m not embarrassed to share, that it was hard parting with my teddy. Teddy is a professional-on-demand cuddler. I would always cuddle my teddy when sad or anxious.

It feels strange being with teddy again. It looks the same, but it feels different. Gives me an alternative universe vibe.

I’ve learnt how to comfort myself without my teddy. Losing attachment towards it. Dealing with emotions that come up, on my own. Instead of using something else to cope with it.

Taking on the very literal term of “emotional baggage.”

In the brilliant film the Labyrinth, Sarah is on an adventure in a weird world, rescuing her brother from goblin King David Bowie.

Relived to find herself in her room. “It was all a dream” she exclaimed, firmly grounding herself to teddy Lancelot.

Then this creepy hoarder lady makes Sarah connect with 3d items. But Sarah starts to remember, there was something she was meant to do.

By letting go of her attachments, the simulated version of her house, starts to crumble.

Capitalism has made us focus on the physical. We spend most of our lives, making money.

Is this really what we’re meant to be doing?

Does this disconnect us from our true self?

Is there something we should be remembering?

If you enjoyed reading this, check out my previous post on how  internerlised capitalism shows up regarding how we treat others.

Forgive And Forget

Ending the story between myself and this Athenian malaka.

As Sometimes,

We need to take a step back,

Say Sorry,

Otherwise,

It will Keep,

Waying You Down.

Forget it,

Really Forget it.

I know this goes against what I wrote in another blog post, but what can I say, I’m developing!

Do Not Let Your Trauma Define You.

That’s Easier said than done I know…

Let’s Start…

Analysing the Words We Use.

Let me tell you a Secret…

Each time We Tell Ourselves,

We are Not Good Enough,

Our Brain takes that As Fact,

And You will Become Just That…

Not Good Enough.

Be careful with language.

“I was hurt, it destroyed me”

Or

“I was hurt, I am healing”

Can you see the difference that has?

This Is Not Avoiding Your problems.

Be Honest,

Write down Your Problems,

I’ve been putting mine in the Fire.

Feels very freeing

Surrendering it to the Universe.

Anyway I go off tangent easily!

To The Athenian malaka,

I’m Sorry,

You were

Born + Raised

In a Toxic System

Taught to Hate Yourself

It sucks.

But it helps me

Understand…

The Way You Are,

Your Behavior,

Was Learnt

At a Young age.

You saw Other Men,

Disrespecting Women.

And You Thought it was

Normal.

I’m Sorry.

To Fight or Not to Fight?

That is the Question…

I came across an athenian man’s instagram account.

Claiming to be a “Media News Company”

His content?

Pictures of A WombAn

with captions such as:

“pimple monster” “ugly” “catfish”

Fire In My Belly!

How Dare he!

MisTreatMySister!

WombAn Rising.

Patriarchachy crumbling.

Do Not Understimate Us.

We Are More Connected to the Earth Mother.

We Fight

With

Our

Whole

Mind

And

Heart.

Intuitively Stronger.

Strong Instincts.

Protect. Love. Defend.

Go on Make Fun of Me!

You Can’t You Cunt.

Because I love Myself.

I Want to Make myself Look Weird

Because I AM Weird!

And Proud.

No Place For Bullying Here.

Warrior Hair

I Am Warrior Earth Goddess.

I Do Not Want To Fight.

When We Fight Others,

We Are Fighting Ourselves.

We’re All Connected

Don’t you get it?

NO! You’re Not Getting It!

We Are Sentient

We Are Sick of It

Peaceful Protesting

Speaking Out

Against Crimes

Towards The Earth.

Us Because We

The Earth.

Using Non Violent Direct Action.

Protests, Petitions, Demonstations

But When The

Corrupted Patriarchal System

We Are currently Being Oppressed by

Does Nothing To Support Us.

We Take Matters into Our Own Hands.

We Are Strong!

Rise Up Like the Sun

Does anyone else get waaayyy too excited and start loads of different projects?

I can’t help it, my mind is buzzing with ideas!

I did give myself a little pep talk this morning though, like Naomi you need to finish, before starting another project! If not I’ll end up with loads of unfinished bits and bobs and get overwhelmed at what to do.

I wanted to add this song to my last post. But thought Naaah!

Let’s do a whole post dedicated to this tune!

Watch Pat Benatar sing her heart out and tell an emotional story through dance and song.

An Authoritative dad yells at his daughter.

Young Rebellious Woman Roars back.

The loving mother looks at her partner like a scared child. Distraught over his harsh punishment towards their daughter. Without even discussing it with her.

Toxic masculinity at its finest.

Tightening her grip on her wedding ring. Shaming herself because she’s not strong enough to leave this asshole of a man.

Kicked out of her Home. Feeling like an Outcast. We see her story unfold. She becomes a woman of the streets. Men constantly lingering around her. Defiantly singing past them.

Enters in a smokey room…haha I just had too!

People moodly staring. We’re introduced to a creepy guy with a silly grin.

Boring night at the club; everyone looks depressed.

When we hear a woman scream.

She’s being harassed by that creepy guy!

Strong Women draped in rags emerge on the dance floor. Support is here. Dancing with Power and Unity.

The Man is looking really freaked out!

I could help myself! He’s such a meme!

I’m surprised they dance together! Then again it is a music video Naomi! There’s fierce dances like Paso Doble that represent fighting. I’ve been watching too much strictly come dancing lol

She chucks holy water to cleanse the toxic masculinity in him. He touches her without her permission. Without fear she bats him away. Shimmying out the door with her girl gang.

Out in the daylight we can really see the amazing outfits the women have! Love the bright clashing colours. The 80s! What a cool time heh?

They thank and bless each other before going their separate ways.

Finishing with Pat Benatar strutting her stuff towards the sunset.

Beautiful.

Three Sisters In Athens

Thank You Sisters

Home is Where the Heart is

Growing up in a council house on benefits. With my dad and brother. No Mother to show me the way. Nits in our hair. Shoes falling apart. Skin covering bare bones.

Enviously looking at girls who adorn themselves with jewellery and beautiful fitted clothing.

Disappointed in Myself and My situation.

A heavy sense of shame followed me.

I didn’t want people to see Me.

If you’re different, you’re a target.

“Ewww you don’t shave your armpits!”

“You’re Gross!”

“I won’t talk to you until you shave”

Body shaming each other.

Ultimately, it’s not their fault.

We’ve been raised in a toxic system where shaming ourselves and others is considered “normal”

All of us are cogs in this mashine.

Even when you realise, that you’re a cog, it’s hard to break away from these patterns, because that’s all you’ve ever known.

Word on the streets is

This System is going Down!

From the Ashes

Grows a New System

Built on Self Love.

It starts with

Women Coming Together.

Being Vulnerable.

Sharing Trauma

In a Safe Space.

Listening with Love.

Crying Together.

Raising each other UP

Women You Are My Heroes!

I’m on a journey of self discovery.

Learning

How My body works.

How My mind operates.

What My heart feels.

Privileged to be part of a group of women that are doing the same.

I’m part of the Virtual Inner circle with Womben Wellness. We learn in depth knowledge about the female body and develop a relationship with our bodies.

It’s such a beautiful enriching resource. I really recommend it! Even if you can’t afford the Inner circle membership, there’s loads of free videos and guides. (This isn’t a paid advert but if you would like to work together let me know lol!)

https://www.wombenwellness.com/

Knowledge is Power

My heart goes out to Men.

The system has punished them for showing their emotions.

“Grow some balls”

The System is Lying!

Vulnerablity

Is Not Weakness

It’s Strength!

Men,

I urge You to Find

Your Safe Space.

With Other Men.

Some of you are probably thinking

“Nope too scary”

Yes it is scary. I can’t even begin to imagine the amount of shame men receive for showing emotions.

But I promise you once you open up, your whole life will benefit from it.

Ask God/Universe/Yourself for courage and to find your safe space.

Your Emotions Are Valid